my soul is troubled and distressed and what shall I say?

Now my soul is troubled and distressed and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour of [trial and agony]? But it was for this very purpose that I have come to this hour [that I might undergo it].    

John 12:27 Amplified Bible Classic Edition


How much easier life would be if we understood the purpose of a thing?  If we had understanding, would it enable us to endure to the end?


We know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose and there is no temptation that we find ourselves in that God has not prepared the way of escape through it. 


The remarkable thing is that most of us would prefer to avoid it all together but it is the dynamic of holding fast to Jesus that gives us the ability to walk through anything and become something larger spiritually than we were before.  


Life on this earth is school for us believers.  We come to know our Father.  We learn Jesus and become Christ like. 


God is at work in us, teaching us how to reflect His glory on this earth.  He gives us time and seasons to grow up, to conform to the image of His son and bear much fruit.  He works in us now to prepare us for a greater weight of glory to be revealed at His return.  Setting up His visible Kingdom, we govern then as we are learning to do now.  


We find ourselves in situations that press us and like Jesus, our soul is troubled and distressed.  Unlike Jesus, most of us cry out for deliverance, not understanding instead of committing ourselves to Him who judges righteously. 


Proverbs writes, “Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get wisdom and in all your getting —get understanding”.  How much better would we, could we, endure if we had understanding and insight as to the purposes of God being worked in the moment? 


While Satan works to divide us from the oneness with the Father by removing us from the word and our intimate times, it is as we lean into the truth and affirm the realities of our Father, that we are able to stay steady in our storms. God is faithful who will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we are able to bear.  


Even if we lack the understanding, we are still required to have faith in God, (blind faith if you will) and know that in our weakness He remains our strength.  We can hold onto him and know that every step we take He is leading us into goodness and something is happening in us that is preparing us for that greater weight of glory. 


My soul is troubled and distressed and what shall I say?